O Darling

Oh my darling. My princess!

Just wrote to "The Day I made mum cry" Contest.It was short description of the moment my mum came to fetch me home.

We didn't fight or had a sour relationship. I just want to stay alone. More freedom, independence and space. Previously it was 6 adults in a 3 room flat waiting rather impatiently for years for our new 5 room flat. (I hate HDB..hahah)

Any way, now that i am a mum, if one day Rachel should leave me that probably will end my life too.At this moment she is one BIG reason for living. She needs me from Day One.

I love her, everything about her, the chubby cheeks, the soft hair and giggles. And i enjoy playing with her, watching her learn to walk, talk, recognise colours, shapes, form sentences and complete jigsaws. She's a fast learner. A very happy and contented child. Truly blest.

Aftermath After thoughts

I can't sleep! Its such a rare occasson that baby slept early tonight but i just can't sleep, how to???? after what had happened????

Since i can't sleep i decide to do as much as I can to kill time. I took the cleaned warm crockery out of the dish washer and arranged them nicely in the cupboard just like Bree in Desperate Housewives but much much faster. And put tonight's dinner back in it.

I set the washing machine to wash tomorrow's laundry....mostly rachel's and mine.

I cleaned the floors twice (dry then wet wipe) and sorted out the bills and whatever that had accumulated on the dining table in just a matter of days. I read the papers again, Oh its yesterday's papers now while finishing off the old bottle of red wine in the fridge as a reward for all the cleaning and packing. (not much only a third left.) My record was a bottle when i was heart broken decades ago.

Life is such an irony sometimes. Married life is like a grave as in you had to constantly "die" to yourself and esteem the other party more important than you.

And babies the "Bundle of Joy" very quickly or almost immediately becames a "Burden of Responsibilities". There are so many concerns i have about rachel.... ballet lessons, insurance, education fund, her health etc etc, and the fact that she will probably be our only child. I pray she will not grow up to be a spoilt diva. Pregnancy and child birth. Such troublesome and painful episodes are definitely not worth repeating in my life time.

Ali Ba Ba Dress

Nice Wedding Picture??? I wore my own Ali Ba Ba dress.

Wedding photography sessions are no joke, I had to pile on so much thick make up, fake lashes and the outdoor shots were really challenging for my stilettos. BTW, nicer shots means more uncomfortable poses.

Boy was i glad i did it! The horrible fact is I was never as slim as i soon became a mum to be.

A malicious rumour had it that we had a shot gun marriage that's why no church wedding (refer to My Dream Wedding) ..Hello!!!! Our beautiful Darling Rachel was born past 40 weeks and 42 weeks from our March 2004 wedding.

I remembered vividly how we prayed for a child on the wedding night (Don't try unless u are serious) and SUDDENLY we are parents to be.!!!! I actually conceived some 2 weeks from that prayer. OH MY GOD!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Aiya got to go meet my husband soon, he want to survey his dream apartment. We are both dreamers.....Bye

Hi there. It's me Rebecca.


Sigh..the past 3 years had been a hectic lot!! I seemed to have vanished from the surface of mother earth. "Where is she now?" "Is she still alive???" "How's her married life????" many had probably wondered to themselves.



Well, for this first blog entry, I am pleased to update you friends and would be friends (sorry..enemies not encouraged) out there what had so quickly transpired.


MY DREAM WEDDING

i've always wanted to marry in CHIMJES. Don't you think its such a beautiful & romantic place that most resembles Europe where i long to get hitched. (I went for an ultimate Europe holiday after my final year exams in NTU Accountancy 1995) Gasp!! now you know my age..so??? BIG DEAL. We all have different ages, physical, emotional and spiritual..I think my would be 36-28-36 (just kidding!!- that's probably my figure now!!!)

Any way back to the CHIJMES wedding fantasy with lots of white and lavender ribbons, flowers and balloons and a SSO String Quartet complete with my own beloved playing the piano..an awesome white grand. (ahem..he's a pianist and now gives lessons for a living) Well, that fantasy church wedding never came to pass as the church violently objected to the now defunct, non worship and highly commercial environment. Better still my parents super stauch non believers as they were, violently objected to being a part of and attending our wedding in a church. So in the end to please every one and covet the peace that i treasure above all else, (hello, i love peace, world peace), i had 2 weddings so to speak. ROM 15 Nov 2003 and a "Mini Party Wedding" 13 Mar 2004 at my new home followed by a mini wedding mini dinner at KL for my husband's family and relatives.