I AM PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!

Rachel was a gift from God that came so quickly. We had prayed on our wedding night for a child since I am already 30 and I do feel the biological clock ticking. haha

I put on weight soon after my Mar 2004 wedding. Getting married can be such a stressful thingy. We did not have a church wedding but we did the usual tea party reception at our then new home and the private family dinners after that.

My furniture arrived one day before the wedding due to some unforeseen delay. Thankfully the guests had that grey L shaped sofa to sit on on the wedding day. My husband's cell group gathered the night before to pray, I was still trying to sleep on my Sengkang bed going through all the checklists. If not for a gentle reminder and a mad dash, there would be no hand held bouquet on that actual day too.

Initially we were only expecting a few close friends to turn up at the house warming party. Many that received our smses did not reply. but on that actual day, the small studio was crammed with 30 or more guests. Thankfully there was more than enough food with the last minute pizza and sushi deliveries.

That night we had a most expensive family dinner at Hai Tien Low Pan Pacific Hotel. The view was fantastic and the food was sumptuous. Each table was priced above $1000 but its all worth it since we prefer not to have the noisy Yum Say type of wedding dinner that requires us to shake so many hands and change so many outfits without eating any thing. I ate...to my heart's content. So did Yan!

The next day we travelled to KL to repeat another dinner this time round many tables and many casually dressed old relatives. We felt like Hollywood celebrities since we were so over dressed. Yan in suit and me, pink satin spaghetti strap dress with super heels and nice hairdo. We ate as much as we could too..Haha

So I was not at all surprised when i gained a kg after wedding. I've been eating eating eating. Soon I felt my working clothes were getting tight at the waist. To slim down i started to swim more often. But i get breathless after just one lap. Still it did not occured to me that i was pregnant.

One night in April 2004, I was reading the bible. Issac had married Rebekah and she had become pregnant with twins in Genesis, suddenly the bible fell from the sofa and it rested with another page in Genesis. This time, Rachel was pregnant. Yet another flip of the bible in Genesis, I read that Sarah, Abrham's wife was pregnant and gave birth to Issac. How strange???Every one is pregnant??? Don't tell me God is telling me that I could be pregnant????? My heart raced.

I told yan my period was late and about the bible stories and soon in the middle of the night we dashed to buy a pregnancy test kit at a near by 7 eleven. You should see the face of the cashier, He looked corny. Backed home I tested with trembling fingers and the result was "Positive"

"May be you see wrongly" my man said. He just made me feel stupid like i did not know how to test. For clarity sake we bought another kit and tested the next day and the answer is the same.
"I am pregnant!!!" I was more shocked then happy..so sudden..right after the wedding???

Thankfully before i married i did a Pre-marital Health Screening with Raffles Hospital and had a regular gynae Dr Vincent Lee (He had since migrated to Australia). Dr Lee confirmed the pregnancy and i had to down many glasses of water for the invasive ultrasound scan. I saw nothing, He saw a spot and measured the thickness of the womb walls and said I am pregnant due 01 Jan 2005.

This is so Amazing!!!! OMG I am a mother!!!!!

Time No Enough

The estate flea market had come and gone with just over hundred in cash takings. Business was not good! May be it coincided with the Great Singapore Sale and the beginning of the school hols or the fact that now a days there are so many stalls close to 70 all selling similar items ranging form baby to books to toys to used clothes, shoes and bags.

I had hired a ad hoc baby sitter to "jaga" Rachel since she liked so much to run about in the estate and thankfully my Sis in law Eve helped tremenduously from the moving of the heavy toyogos up a flight of stairs to promoting. She's really good and strong for her age and i actually feel bad each time she helped me. We had pizza dinner after that long hard day where the rains threatened to pour not once but twice.

Talking about weather, these days its so hot you could melt. Since young i prayed that Singapore will be cooler, best at least 5deg cooler, I would not mind if it rain daily as it would mean cooler temperatures. I also dun understand when people adjust their thermostat to 25deg its far too warm for air con temp. I function best when its bet 20-22deg and no i do not have any thyriod problems but perhaps I am carrying too much Blubber. Well insulated from the cold.

Now that i am a full time mother and rachel is not attending child care any more, I literally have no time to even look into the mirror. You see, I am the type that need to spend a lot of time in front of the mirror criticising every mole and black head and applying this and that from head to toe before i feel really "GOOD" Each morning i also need a nice cuppa with papers to crank my engine. Afterall, I am still waking at least once a night to nurse my toddler. (I have not slept through the night since 2004 Mar)

I hardly have time to exercise too, its so difficult, when she is awake she NEEDS me to play with her, read to her, paint with her, play computer games and learn together with her and when she sleeps i have so much to catch up in terms of house hold chores or meal preparation. Sometimes, after she sleeps at night I finally have the luxury to focus on cleaning the house.

I am quite house proud and rather a neat freak. I can't stand hair on the laminate floors or in the bath room. So are soap or toothpaste stains on the sink or vanity surface. I get irritated when things are in a mess. Some times i have to clean the floors several times a day due to baby food mess. How to have more kids?? One is enough!

Afterall, I had cared for baby since Day One when were back home from the hospital with a SUPER ULTRA BLOODY PAINFUL C-SECTION.